Welll I'm in QA hell here at work. I just finished chatting with you know who... Basically I broke it down to her. I told her about how I feel. I told her how important our friendship meant to me and how I love hanging out with her. Typically, she blew me off again. I wish I saved the log so I could always remember how cold she is. When her guard is up.. she's ruthless and unflinching. And the way it looks, she'll never let her guard down for me again. O well... Not having contact with her will probably keep both of us healthier emotionally. I'll deal with it.