Sometimes I even shock myself by the boldness of some of my actions.  I mean... the things I try to pull off can have some serious consequences but for whatever crazy reason... I still proceed.  I forsee a change in myself in the near future.  Mark my words.  By early May I'll be a new man: I'll have increased discipline, confidence, and determination.  I promise.  I just have to get over this hump with school and events in mid-April.  Be strong... you will prevail.