The Dilemna

I've been fucking up as of late. Not in my eyes but in the eyes of everyone else. In the past, I've rarely cared about what the fuck anyone thought about me and/or my actions. I've always thought of myself as a fairly amoral person. My primary philosophy is that life is just a game.

But now things are changing. I'm dealing with real life issues that truly affect others not just myself. My philosophy is at odds with those in my life that I love. Is it possible for my ideals to peacefully mesh with the ideals of loved ones? Why is it so difficult for me to change?

And ultimately... was I meant to live this live alone?